These are not terms that normally describe the feelings in this house. Filled with parent-teacher conferences, appointments, illness, attempts to build a new bed and just the normal duties, the past couple of weeks have been anything but lazy. So, when opportunity knocks to just relax, wouldn't you take it? Even if dishes in the sink, laundry in the baskets, and toys on the floor made you feel guilty?
Today is not the typical day around here. With my oldest off to school, and my son spending time with auntie, it's just me and my little one. I have been able to watch a show or two, write this, and just breathe. Times like this I think the unspeakable question. Would life be easier if I had chosen a different path? The answer, without a doubt. But, then I am reminded actually how much joy those three children have brought to my life. Yes, there is fighting, chaos, and exhaustion. Also, there is love, laughter and fulfillment. Spending time with Bails alone reminds me of how incredibly amazing each of my children are. Watching her sing and dance around the living room in nothing but a diaper brings a smile to my face. It's truly a wonder how individual each child is. If you were an onlooker into the window of my life you WOULD see the dishes, the laundry, the toys... BUT I see the meals we spend together (even if sometimes its just mac-n-cheese and hot dogs). I see the clothes that the kids have had so much enjoyment playing in and getting dirty, or throwing around the bedroom playing dress up games. I see the games of house, and fort that clutter the living room and bedroom.
Times like this remind me that God has chosen this path for me, I just walk it. I have been absolutely blessed to have my little diva, my superhero, and my dancer. So, I think the unspeakable question again, and again the answer is without a doubt. But without a doubt, I choose to embrace the life that He has chosen. I choose to praise each one of my kids for what makes them special and individual. I choose love, laughter, and fulfillment, along with the fighting chaos and exhaustion.
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